So, I began my blogging experience April 17th, 2009……since then I have only posted the initial blog!! I so suck at this!! I’ve come here and “looked” at this site, but never had anything to write. Today I came back because I needed to add another blog to follow!! I know, I know…I must be a follower! Why can’t I be leader!?!? Don’t our mommas always say, “Don’t be a follower, be a leader!!”? They want us to be our own person…well Momma, I love you, I took your advice and I have come to realize that being a blog follower is who I am! I AM NOT A BLOGGER…I AM A BLOG FOLLOWER AND THAT WORKS FOR ME!! LOLOLOLOLOLOL…..
So now that I got that out of my system, I’ve been thinking a lot lately…not that I don’t normally think, it’s just that lately, it’s been some tiring thoughts! In bible study, Priscilla Shirer said we should keep journals as part of our spiritual lives. ( Yes, I personally know Priscilla Shirer….she just doesn’t know me!) However, journals just aren’t my thing anymore…that’s something I did as a teenager! So, I’m going to try to get into this blog thing more and not just to follow others!
As my family is beginning to end our season at Mountain Home AFB, I find myself constantly thinking of all the lessons the Lord has taught me through this place and the people I’ve met here. First of all, don’t ever let anyone tell you this place is beautiful or fantastic because they will be lying! Sorry to have to be o blunt, but that’s the way I see it. This place is literally the desert! It is physically the desert, with the tumbleweeds, lack of rain, heavy woods and whistle pigs! Moreover, it is spiritually the desert…well, at least in my life. The Lord brought my family here for it to be a pit stop in our journey. We had to come here in order to grow in Him as a unit as well as individuals. We had to wander the desert just as the Israelites had to in order to learn to look to God for all our needs. Thankfully, we didn’t need 40 years to learn, just 4! In these 4 years, He has taught me soooooo much by allowing me to see and experience different things. I have learned that all people that come into my life, whether Christians or non-Christians, are not meant to be roots. Some people I thought would be roots ended up being leaves. At times, it still hurts because of the way they “blew” away, but I am glad the Lord taught me that He is the root of my life. I have learned that at times when He has placed me in leadership positions, it may not have been for me! Sometimes, He uses me to “plant” so that others may “grow.” I must say, that was a hard lesson because I just knew He was using me so that I would grow! Well, I grew, but not the way I thought I would. I grew down…..I grew more humble!!! I now know that that is the best way to grow! These are just a few of the lessons I had to learn and those were simply in the last year! LOL……but while He was teaching me, He was blessing me, just as He said He would! HALLELUJAH! He said He would use all things and make them work for my good and by His name, He did! He blessed me with 4 children who grew in Him! My boys LOVE GOD like nobody’s business! Quad prays in the morning before school. We used to pray together and it truly helped my son through the 4th grade. He continues to pray on his own and is happier for it! Cidd studies his Awana book, memorizing those scriptures like his name. But moreover, he applies them because he understands what they mean and how the Lord speaks to Him through His Word. Cuinn…..my twin…is a prayer! I can sit and listen to this boy pray all day and trust me, he can pray all day! He prays for everything, everybody, and everything in between! If he forgets something, he’ll start praying again…LOL…..and he’s so earnest! I mean, his prayers are so….refreshing and heartfelt, that they cause the heart to swell and make me praise the Lord for His goodness!!! Camm is a follower right now, so he follows the lead of his older brothers and all I can say is, THANK YOU FATHER, THAT HIS BROTHERS ARE LEADING HIM TO YOU!!!!!! My boys make me so proud, but I think the greatest blessing the Lord bestowed upon me here in this season was my husband! I fell in love with him all over again the first Sunday here…August 6th, 2006…..when he began surrendering to the Lord by giving his life back to Christ!! In that moment, my Daddy answered years of prayers, not only my prayers, but the prayers of my Aviano sisters who were praying alongside me for my man! If that wasn’t enough, my Daddy then took my husband to Afghanistan in 2008 at which time, he began growing him as an individual in order that our unit grow as well. Now, I had to remember that while Idaho may be my desert, it wasn’t’ my husband’s desert in the same sense. No, Afghanistan was his. When God took the man I knew and loved to his desert…..my God, my God, what He did was AMAZING! He completely transformed my husband to someone who…..well, I don’t know how else to describe it but to say I learned what the saying “the way to my heart is through Christ” really meant! There was no way I could love my husband as the man he had become if I did not first love God! I couldn’t love my husband without praising God for who He had made my husband!! I couldn’t love my husband without first thinking of my God!! THAT’S HOW AMAZINGLY, AWESOME GOD IS! So over the last month, I have been deep in thought about my Mountain Home journey and how it has been one roller coaster ride that while I don’t want to repeat some of the events, I am grateful I endured and made it through. As I continue to take and apply these lessons to my daily life, and yes sometimes I stumble, I cannot help but wonder how the Lord is going to use these lessons in my next season. I’m not pondering on it or worrying about it because He has never left me hanging, but I find that I am excited about the journey on which I am about to embark. What He has in store for me and my family, I have no idea, but I do know it’s going to be great because God’s going to be leading! So I’m ready, Lord! I’m ready, willing and able!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Ok, so this is very new to me! Hey Y'all! I was sitting here, reading and thinking and the thought occurred to me that maybe, just maybe, I should try blogging. I mean, I come on here often to read about whatever yall have wrote about......yes, I'm nosy, but we all know that...LOL! So, the genius in me said to me, "Why not create a blog of your own and that way when you come on here and read about everyone else's life, you'll have something to offer as well!!!" PURE GENIUS!
So, anywho, this is my first blog! As I said in the beginning, this is new to me. I'm not used to writing out my life, especially my feelings. Judging by the ongoings in my life lately, I can honestly say, that my feelings are bound to appear on this page a WHOLE LOT!! I'd heard that journaling was therapeutic and I'm starting to believe it! I've only been blogging for about 2 minutes now and I already feel a little less tense than when I started! Ok, well, gotta go dry the laundry in preparation for soccer and baseball tomorrow! See yall later!